To Love And Be Loved

because she has let go of herself, she is perfectly fulfilled.

sometimes i fear that no matter where i fly to, i will never be free to live the life i want to live… ill just always have a nice warm safe peaceful view of the outside of the world. im not host to parasites at all. i am the warm little center of light that the world surrounds itself around.

yo(u) Saved my L(i)fe last night…

i will never forget this gratitude for you and as the saying goes “IF i FELL in LOVE with yo(u)” i know you will forever be True to me. Thank You to the Universe for bringing such a splendid person into my Existence. i needed this more than anyone could have possibly known. i am forvever in yo(u)r web, let me get lost and entangled in the mess of your hair and the sweet smell of your aura.

Your past is just a story. And once you realize this, it has no power over you.

i feel like throwing up. i dont want to think about this or yo(u) especially anymore. im slowly losing my mind, but not in the charming sense that i normally am. i feel sick, weak, mentally exhausted, and to Fear above else…i feel Lost. and i dont know how i got here or how to find my way back. all i know is, i pray He has the maps for me. i need Him to be my Shining Light back to the surface of things. the Fury says kill, kill, kill, but all i want to do is remember the curves of your skeletal frame as the skin clung to flesh. and not feel this immense amount of…i cant even begin to describe it. but i want it out. now, now, now.

i need to get more sleep at night and not wonder how you are doing as well… for i have gone down my rabbit hole and love this place of Wonder. but i cant help but miss the world i used to see and feel…

never mourn the loss of lost affection: please remember to only lightly ponder the memory, not live in it.

now yo(u) are just somebody that (i) (u)sed to know….

I left it all behind in the dead of last winter
I left it all behind but the question still lingers
So long, forgotten friends, no, you don’t know the difference
Between love and submission, and I’m not that obedient

in a world of my own, its empty and alone, but its safe…and protected. the Light once brought so much happpiness into existence, but now it burns like a thousand suns everytime someone marvels at its luminescence…and me? why, i must wear sunglasses everytime i step outside. for in a world of my own, the Light no longer comes. there is nothing but a full moon light and the promise of Enlightenment one day…for all. create your own Light, never help another shine. always shine from within.

what else is an astral muse to do but run through the woods until everything blurs into one encompassing moment?

why is it that whenever i ask a female what they want out of life, it somehow always involves a man and HIS stability? its the silliest thing ive ever heard. im so glad i care about trees an the universe versuses having a male in my life to make it have some sort of worth value. iLive for me.